Welcome

Dear soulmate :)

We have recently hit our 5 year anniversary, I don't think I've had an anniversary for anything besides maybe birthdays if that even counts...In a way you're taking some of my 'firsts'. We've always written about each others' first impressions in letters like this and though I love tradition I think I'll switch it up today and mention the post impression.

The time we spend together are like little pockets of fresh air, my default font is stripped away. I become the way I am alone but with you. I saw a quote once "you know you like them when you prefer their company over being alone" and ignoring the romantic implication of it (wink), that's you for me. I don't second guess thoughts before saying them out loud, my throat doesn't tighten before I speak, my facial expressions aren't practiced in a mirror before, my feet don't hesitate to walk up when I notice your presence. I don't find myself fighting to be my authentic self with you. The mere thought of me putting on a font with you is foreign, and that by itself is not a quality I share with many people if not any. I have currently lived 5 whole years of a dua with you, and will continue to do so even when our feet enter heaven In Sha' Allah.

I have sat down and analysed what makes us so compatible and when I tell you too many reasons popped up...Too many did, but my favourite one was about our inner children. We have created a friendship so true, full of love and acceptance, completely free from judgement that mine and your inner child come out. The little Sarah and Kawthar within us feel safe to show up when we are together. We both had an interesting childhood, being the first daughter in an arab household, with parents that have only recently started to learn to love each other, created many relatable bonds between us that, although we would live better without, tied our mini selves together. You're the only person I feel comfortable showing my lowest, and that's not only because I trust you. Talking it out with you, or even just sending a couple messages about it gives my relief, literally just letting you know has the same effect as me coming up with a solution mentally. I feel comfortable sharing my highest moments with you, and that's not just because I trust you. But when I say it, no matter how small the achievement or moment is, it turns into a memory that includes you. The brain packs about 100,000 neurons into a space as small as a grain of rice, and 1 memory can take up a network of 1,000s to 1,000,000s of neurons. The number of neurons my brain occupies you in - the memories I've created with you, or ones I subconsciously added you in when I shared it with you. Well, That's a digit that needs to be in our bank balance after we launch our business.